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 I work as Project Management Specialist for an Oil & Gas company. This is what gives me money to pay my bills. The idea for most people who  work like me and make decent money is  that either you make your work , work life or after work life  so interesting that it keeps you going.

As far as work is concerned,  I think making your work interesting is not in hands of majority of people. You do get stuck into the path you had chosen a  few years ago. The work is no longer interesting but it gives good money and you don’ t want to compromise on that front. So you continue doing what you do best not necessarily enjoying . Some small percentage of people are lucky who do enjoy what gives them  their livelihood. I would just leave it at – that they are lucky and I am not so. Frankly I don’t even know what I would enjoy in terms of my profession.

So there is second breed for whom the work is not interesting but work life is. What I mean by work life is that you have a good friends network at your workplace. You are going for lunch or coffee with them. Sharing office politics and generally having good time.

And last breed is where your work and work life sucks but your personal life make it bearable. You have a comfortable relationship with your family. You get all your fun , support and happiness from them and the whole work hours are bearable because at the end you get to go home and enjoy.

Have you analysed which category do you fall into. For me I don’t fall into any. My work, work life and after work life all suck.  Having my son in my life is what gives me energy to go to work and come back home. I live my life through his activities and schedule. In between I throw in some movies or get together with friends .But there is this deep dissatisfaction that stems from not having any other meaningful, solid relationship except with my son. 

I am wondering if  there are  people who were/are in similar situation. Any suggestions to make my life more meaningful and interesting.

May be this is phase and it will pass too and I pray to god everyday that it does.

Have you ever felt that empty feeling when you get birthday wishes from your friends on facebook but your own husband simply forgets it. I know he does not believe in celebrating birthdays. I am not expecting any celebration but a simple wishing would have done the job. But as  we all know, remembering is the first step before wishing and it hurts that he does not remember.

It is not a big thing and this is not the first time he has forgotten but I haven’t gotten used to it. I am not sad but getting that wish from my husband would have made me happy.

On a positive note, we have joined YMCA adult swimming classes yesterday as a couple and hope this time we give our best and learn it. We have tried learning before but did not succeed.

So I am another year old today but wine gets better with time. Isn’t it.

Love

B

Edited to add: Wow Wow Wow……. When I reached home this evening. There was a big surprise waiting for me. A nice cake with a candle. My husbad said that he had to change candle three times as I was late in reaching home. My son played “Happy Birthday” tune on his guitar. He has started learning recently and apparently has been practicing all afternoon to play it for me in the evening. I got a nice “Guess” watch as a gift. All in all  Fentabulous ,Awsome , Wonderful.

B

Hello world,

I have thinking about starting a blog for sometime now. This will be sort of my online journal to jot down anything and everything that I fancy.



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